Like I feel like I went ham…Ughhh my sisters have always told me I speak my mind too much…way more than I should. Like sometimes I can be brutally honest without being aware that I am hurting someone’s feelings. The weird thing is that is my close friends’ favorite quality in me…Well this leads to this guy I had a crush on a while back but things didn’t work out at all. So I was like “maybe we shouldn’t try to make more of what we are and just be friends.” But ever since then he wouldn’t talk to me and when he finally decided to contact me, he copped an attitude when I did absolutely nothing to him, so I just brushed it off. A couple of months later he texts me and was like “do you want me back” I said “no” and then he said “I was like every other girl” so I was like fine whatever. Then this winter break dude mesmerizes me with his abs that transformed from a 6 pac to and 8 pac (who has 8 pacs any more?!!…over achievers) and he’s like “I promise if i ever mess up again you can cut me out of your life forever.” I’m like ok…everyone is like give him a second chance except for Kasey and Taylor who are like “hellllll no.” But I don’t listen and I’m like I think this promise is genuine. It’s adorable at 1st then later the text messages he was sending me became extra dry with one word or two word responses but then he called me and we had a great conversation. The next day he only writes back to 2 of my texts and ignores the rest…sooo I’m like cool. Then today while we are texting and he is talking about how things didn’t work out his way so he didnt want to talk anyone yesterday and from there I’m reminded of why we didn’t work out. This guy would whine about the simplest of things. When he would have a bad day he would ignore me and shut everyone out(which was often). So then I’m taken back to the 1st time we tried things out. How he took me on the cutest date but ruined it by talking about how terrible his life is. Then how we planned to kick it at my house(sonnnnn I threw it DOWN in the kitchen…like that meal was beautiful and tasted even better…and I’ve never cooked for ANY guy I’ve dated) but he didn’t call to cancel or answer  any of my texts because he had a bad day…I ended it the next day. Like he is gorgeous but very unstable emotionally…since he hadn’t changed I figured we should stay friends and spoke my mind again but I used sentences like “you feel sorry for yourself”,”emotionally unstable”, “don’t think we could ever work out” and so much more…I said it all in possibly the nicest way I could and ended it with “but we should definitely be friends” and I got a “whatever bye” from him. He hates me and I genuinely did not mean to hurt him because i was “too honest”…idk….